This early morning, I lay on my bed. I can't sleep even though I'm sleepy and tired. My eyes get stuck, can't be closed. And I just can't stand this unwell feeling, unwell condition.
I have to practice my homework but it's 03:00 am. I have to sleep but it's 03:00 am. It's too late to sleep, too early to start my tuesday. So, I decide to stay and lay on bed with my eyes open.
I.. can't stand this. It's gonna be worse, my condition, my health. Since the day I got sick, I couldn't sleep at normal time. I couldn't live my normal life.
I was just tired, and now I am. I feel like it's enough but I just can't let my self giving up. I feel like it's time to end but I just can't let my self leaving my dreams away, leaving people behind.
I.. just need time to recover all the things have passed, the things I've done. I.. need time to prepare, to reach, to enjoy my dreams. I need more time to make my self better and better. I.. need time to make my parents, family, friends, and people happy. I need time to walk on a straight road that will bring me to God. Then, the time may come.